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Myrahans Lafrelle, 18Ich kann ein bisschen Deutsch Hip Hop, Reggae, Broadway Student by the day, Dancer by the night |
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Monday, January 21, 2008
11:56 PM
After every storm, the sun will shine and rise up high. Spreading its warmth to the earth's surface. Nothing could beat that, obviously.Nevertheless, there's usually a flaw somewhere. The flaw, i guessed, lies in me. I've come to realise that I've met with many downfalls in the beginning of 2008. Oh scratch that, I've landed into many unpleasant situation. And i guessed, i must be accountable for it. Plus, I'm on my own. The feeling of fear never stirred in my stomach before. Probably because I'm used to being alone. Yeah, having a companion really irritates the hell out of me sometimes. However, having friends is definitely fun. More than fun actually. Reality check, O'Levels results are release on 24th January 2008. Scared? Oh yeah baby, REAL anxious, frightened and excited. Off the record, i hoped my results ain't shitting on me. Fingers-crossed. I'm hoping to get enroll to Mass Communication. However, i think I'll apply via JAE and JPSAE. I know my demeanor is like a typical Singaporean. But in case of emergency, I'll use my talent for the application. Like they say, you may never know. Anyway, my life on the other hand hasn't been real good. It might be me, as an individual. I've been feeling funny, quirky, hell and not forgetting, angry. I really don't know why. Grand papa is in the hospital. I've been sick for 2 weeks till now. I truly despised being controlled and told. VERY. I cried remembering the incident. Although I've trained my thoughts to shut that painful incident, it'll still haunt me every now and then. Nevertheless, i grew stronger each day. I learnt how to master in blocking my emotions away. I believed that, emotions are the most lethal weakness of a human being. As an example to all, i must behave and dressed prim and proper. Deep inside, i knew my heart ached for something more. Yes, more. I'm tired of these miserable life. Every corner of the street, looms a dark mysterious individual. Being on guard always is very depressing. Nevertheless, i shuddered to think of the superior punishment if i disobeyed the rules set by him. |
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