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she who writes
Myrahans Lafrelle, 18Ich kann ein bisschen Deutsch Hip Hop, Reggae, Broadway Student by the day, Dancer by the night |
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Monday, February 4, 2008
hell
11:58 PM
Yes, i'm bloody exhausted.Eventhough school has not start "proper", i feel like dying already. Yes, dying. Plus, it's not like everyday i get a tutorial. I guess, thinking and multi-tasking other stuff is wearing me out, fast. Still, that's only the beginning. I don't know why my thoughts keep on straying on these kind of matter. I wonder why, out of sudden, you seek for my help. Witnessing others embracing each other reminded me how i missed your warmth permeating through me. I asked myself a question. " Out of all things, why can't i have what they have?" It is because i'm not qualify or good enough to have it. OR, is it because of me as an individual. Damnation, i strive as hard as the others. But i'm still not, or rather never, good enough. Hell, how can i forgot the most essential point. Physical appearance and beauty do play a part. Being unglam, clumsy and of course, blur, in nature puts me at a disadvantage. I know as an individual, you have to possess those qualities you've always mentioned. AND, i know i'll never be able to meet them. Simply because, i'm just me. The plain, uninteligent, nonsentical me. That's me. |
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