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Myrahans Lafrelle, 18Ich kann ein bisschen Deutsch Hip Hop, Reggae, Broadway Student by the day, Dancer by the night |
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Tuesday, June 17, 2008
The chills within...
4:13 PM
I could still remember the scent of the sea.It was salty and fresh. The scent still lingers deep inside me. I'm going to reach an age where all the responsibilities are going to set sail towards me. Exciting as it is, i'm not looking forward to it. I wonder why sometimes. My mind kept on changing constantly just like a chameleon changing its colour. I don't know why i'm never satisfy. Sometimes, i feel like banging my head to the wall. As i grew older, there's many obstacles i have to go through. Dwelling on it won't solve anything. How i wish the wind could just blow it all away and perish it, forever. However, i knew that's a child's brain. For heaven sake, i'm almost a young adult now. Hence, i jolly well start thinking like one. Nevertheless, i couldn't muster the courage to be like one. So many choices and dangers will be lurking down the corners. I may never know or even anticipate what will be coming down upon me. I guess, i'm not as strong as i believe. I know, i'll wander somewhere far and isolated from the world. There, i can pour out all my filthy thoughts and emotions that is tossing my mind in a derelict situation. Hoping to have a shoulder to cry on? I stop hoping already. I guess, i'm tired of waiting. Waiting for a shoulder is like waiting for droplets of rain to fall on an abundant land. It was useless. I think i've learnt enough about it. All they do is toss your words into your face. Hmm, such a contradicting world. Others out there kept preaching about the goodness and wonders in it. However, in reality, you'll get none of it. That's the irony of this situation. Nevertheless, that's my views about it. Deep inside where my heart is pounding, i know no individual can change my perception unless... ..there's someone.. Maybe, not. |
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