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Myrahans Lafrelle, 18Ich kann ein bisschen Deutsch Hip Hop, Reggae, Broadway Student by the day, Dancer by the night |
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Thursday, September 18, 2008
11:58 PM
Sometimes, you just don't know why. Even if you tried to figure it out, the answer choose to remain unknown. At that moment , curiousity gets the better of me. After searching and hunting for the answer, i wished i never knew it. Many would wonder why i was disheartened to hear the news. Well, the answer was something unexpected. I knew i couldn't bear to face the truth. So, i choose to remain ignorant. But, for how long can i hide? I knew that my solid exterior wall is going to crumble down and leaving me vulnerable. Vulnerable for the naked eyes to see what's hidden beneath it. Thinking of it scare the bejesus out of me. I know i shouldn't be but i can't help it. Walking and feeling the sand playing on my toes is a pleasurable experience. Despite the cool weather, my head was in a muddled. Loads of stuff is coming in. Thus, it didn't even gave me space to breathe. The whole lot of it happen so fast that i forgot to breathe sometimes. I prayed that all those sutff will be lifted off from me soon. With promos round the bend, i will want full concentration being poured there. Nevertheless, i'm feeling helpless in this situation. Why do i have to fall so hard? Why didn't even i think about the after-math of it? This is prolly because i'm listening to my desires and not brain. I guess the system had a momentarily relapse. Deep down, i knew it. But, i refused to acknowledge it. Sometimes, it's not worth it. HELL, i don't even know what to do. I'm such a mess. Labels: rumpled me inside out baby |
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