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Myrahans Lafrelle, 18Ich kann ein bisschen Deutsch Hip Hop, Reggae, Broadway Student by the day, Dancer by the night |
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Thursday, October 2, 2008
6:38 PM
I contemplated my damnation.
Hell is not fire and brimstone, i realized. It consisted of merciless self-awareness. You learned the truth about yourself in hell. You faced the lies that you had told your soul in order to justify doing the wrong things. AND hell is also an eternal humiliations. Hari Raya celebration was supposed to be a joyous occasion with fun-filled laughters and joy. However, this year i felt none of those. I could actually feel my tightened grasp began to loosen each day. I know they are slipping away slowly from my little fingers. It pains me to witness their suffering. I knew they plastered a smile to conceal all their unbearable pains. My heart is beating like a raging storm I couldn't faced the ugly truth that's painting on my lovely window Frustration and anger is boiling in me Nothing could be done but pray to HIM The year 2008 is coming to an end. This year's journey was a bumpy ride for me. Never for a moment I was at peace. Lots of expectations were burning down on me. I tried to hard but to no avail. All i want to do is to impress you. But sometimes, it ain't enough. Sometimes, i doubt myself. Questions about life kept coming to me. I tried my best to avoid all these. But soon enough, I've to face all this. So you see my life story ain't that great. It's like a wheel full of ups and downs. Every path that I'm going to take is full of surprises. You may never know what's down that lane. Nevertheless, I'll fight against the odds. SECRETS OF SURRENDER |
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